City of Refuge

Last year ended with the Tsunami.
It began with my wedding.

The 3rd Quarter of the year was highlighted with Hurricane Katrina and multiple air plane crashes. We cringe at war and fear nuclear weapons but there is a terror greater than that - natural disasters.

Externally the world is chaotic. Cries of help and pleading for mercies.

I just started my new job. For the month of September, I don't know if I would be earning $$. People talk about not having enough $$. I'm talking about having no $$. Which is worse?

Yet the earth still spins and the sun rises and sets and the moon takes its' place.

Some people ask, how can you still continue with life in the midst of such terrible disasters? But it still rains and the sun still shines. Birds still fly and insects crawl. I think that those who are not in it still need to continue life as it is for them, else the whole world would come to a halt. Then who is going to help us all??

Yeah. Maybe that's the question everyone is asking. Who is going to help us all?

On my 2nd day of work, my 1st day of cold calling, I felt this terrible reluctance to go to work. It's hinged on fear. I had this fear of calling strangers and being turned down, not knowing what's waiting at the other end of the line.

Then i prayed and asked God to take away this fear. I had enough of dreading to go to to work, I really don't want to dread going to work in this new job. After a few calls, God did take away my fear. When I was turned down, it didn't hurt as much although it was a bit dissapointing to get 1 tentative 'yes' after calling the whole entire day.

Well, anyway God is my city of refuge. Externally, the world is chaotic. You never know what is going to happen. Internally, my world is chaotic. I never know what is going to happen. All I know is that God knows what is going to happen and I trust in Him.