Where's the road ahead?

Oh, guess what? I made the decision to resign and I resigned. Now I'm back to square 1. It's deja vu. When will I ever get out of this "I don't know what I want as a career"?

It all started on the first day of my Form 4 year. Life before was mapped out for me. You turn 4, you go to kindergarten. You turn 7, you go to primary school. Try get all As for UPSR, then you move on to secondary school.

On a hindsight, I suppose not knowing which secondary school to go to was a sign of the "dunno" brewing ahead. When you are in Form 1, it's do your best for PMR until Form 3.

Then I hit a T-junction. Left - Right. Arts - Science. Qualifying for both doesn't help (of course!) That's when the "which one will you do better in?" came to place. So I picked Arts since my Maths sucks. I'm not sure if it was a good decision 'cos when I went to pre-u, I had problems understanding Add. Maths and it pulled my grades down.

Oh, then the next wall I ran into was which degree and university to go to. Actually, I had problems deciding on pre-u as well. I made the decision by - "I want to live away from home" and went to a college in Penang- stayed in a hostel, made great friends, had lots of fun and came back to KL to do my degree.

Well, I didn't put in much effort in deciding my degree though. In the end, my mum made the decision for me which I strongly objected because I didn't know what I wanted and I didn't bother to find out what I want.

Ok..I can see how this comes back to haunt me. I should have put in the effort to find out what I want

Oooo talk about experience making you wiser.

Which leads to my next dilemma-looking for a job.

Anyway, to cut a long story short, I didn't quite enjoy my 1st job and my 2nd job and my 3rd job. In the first place, I didn't know what kind of job I would really like to have. Yes, I also didn't put in much effort to find out what I wanted and what kind of job I wanted.

Now, why aren't I contend being a clockwatcher who goes to work in the morning, looks at the clock, breaks for lunch, looks at the clock, go home, do whatever I want and goes back to work again? Who cares about not enjoying your work as long as you are paid on time?

Hmmm...I think I have some serious brain issues.

The morale of the story is - it's important to know what kind of career you want to have before you start work. In my opinion, this will help narrow down your job choices and when you're not happy with your work, you can move on and up the corporate ladder faster.

The conclusion of the matter is - I'll make more effort this time to find out what kind of career I want. I got a handful of ideas. Maybe I should write a book about this "internal career search" and put it under "self help" section.

The irony of it all is - we tell our children to study hard, to study smart so that they'll have a bright future. But what's the point of it all if you don't know what you want to do in life? What kind of future will you have if you don't know where you want to go?It's better to help them realize what kind of career they want to have and then ask them to study hard and smart towards the right goal! Eh, and it shouldn't be the parent's goal. That's cheating. Think about those who don't have children to "remove" the regrets they have in life.

Oh shucks, where do you think I can get the compass that Jack Sparrow owns?