2 more days

I have 2 more days before I start my new job..
It feels like my school holiday is about to end and I have to sit for exams when I return to school.
That dread..

That's the problem when you're a 'C' person [check out the DISC personality profile] and have decided to make a 180 degrees change in career.

But there's more..

I have this list of things that I want to do before I start my new job and 90% of it is still on the list.
That's so sad.

I don't know what happened to my hours.
I know most of it was spent travelling within PJ trying to get my certificates out etc. Another few days was spent in training. 1 or 2 was sort of wasted? Did I? I don't think so.

Oh i dunno..

oh well.. maybe I shouldn't have so many things on my list knowing how I love to procrastinate or knowing how time has its own way of flying off unseen.

2 more days..

It's so great driving a BMW

NO!

Not when you're less than 5 feet and the BMW is 15 years old?

The problem : I had to put 2 pillows behind my back before I can reach the clutch.

How embarrassing. I pulled the seat up max to the closest I could get to the steering wheel, and I still couldn't reach the clutch.

Thank God I could look out into the windscreen. I dunno if other people could see someone driving that car, but yeah, at least I could see other people driving their cars.

Anyway, it's a relief to get back with the car in 1 piece. Thank God for that. I prayed all through my journey - to prayer meeting. hehe. Maybe it's just God's way of teaching me to have courage and trust in Him - always.

Which leads to 1 conclusion that I have made after 1 day of taking the feeder bus.
If you want to learn what faith is, take the public bus!

Public buses has a prescribed route and a specified time. However, as punctual as Malaysians are, we are usually approximately there, sometimes early, sometimes late and suprisingly on time when you least expect.

Hence the need for faith.

I know that there's a LRT feeder bus that passes my house. How regular, at what time - I do not know.

One day, when I needed to take that bus in the afternoon, I tracked it's movement (I can tell that the LRT feeder bus is passing by the unique sound it makes when it brakes to go over the bump on the road in front of my house).

9.50am
10.36am
11.12am
11.55am
12.35pm
1.17pm

I concluded that the LRT feeder bus passes by approximately every 40 minutes.
Upon calculation, I speculated that it would pass by at 3.15pm.

It could be earlier, It could be late, It could be on time.

So I waited at 3.10pm. The sun was hot.
And I waited.
And then the questions started..
Is it coming?
Must I take a taxi?
Would it be late?
What if the driver decides to take tea?
Maybe I calculated it wrongly?
Lord..please let it come. I don't want to pay RM2.50 for the taxi fare!
And I waited.
3.15pm
It didn't drive by.
And the questions continued..
Will it stop? There's no bus stop here.
What if the driver didn't see me?
what if the driver purposely didn't want to stop?
Is it ever coming?
I'm giving it another 5 minutes, else I'll take the cab.

Talk about test of faith!

At 3.20pm, the familiar sound of the LRT feeder bus was heard, I saw it, flagged and prayed it would stop and it did!

I got on board, paid 50cents, very very thankful that I saved RM2.

The more I think about it, the more I see the resemblance - taking that step of faith, is like waiting for the public bus in M'sia.

Reading don't equate to Living

Oh, it's just a title. I couldn't decide what to title this blog.

I haven't been blogging for awhile.. I don't think anyone misses though as I don't get much readers simply 'cos I don't publicize it.

It's nearly September..3 more months to December. How quickly time flies..thru tough times and happy times. I remember last year, I was looking forward to my wedding, this year - I don't know what to look forward to.

1 word summarizes this year - CHANGE!!

First it was the marriage
Then it was staying in a home that is not the home you've been living in for the past 25 years
Then it was spiritual - truths about praying, the apostolic & prophetic

but the major one was job switch.

All my life, at the back of my mind, I said I'm not going to sell. Why? Because I don't think I'm good at it. I'm reserve. I'm quiet. I keep to a small circle of friends. I don't enjoy socialising. I feel uncomfortable around strangers.

So why the heck did I decide to switch from administration to sales?

Because I see that it's the way I need to take to meet my future goals and because I realize that I really need to break out of my "predicability & fear of strangers" shell.

And ouch it hurts all the way.

Imagine you're a tortoise happily hiding in your shell and here's this gila person taking a hammer to crack it open.

Hurts like hell.

Oh well. I've decided to take the pain killer and let the shell crack.

The latest change is my mindset on money. Attending this course on Financial Freedom and it's super though provoking - It takes the earth from you and lets you fall right through, relying on God's grace & promises to catch you at the bottom.

I'm not suprised that this year is a year of change for me. It's what you would expect when you attend a church whose year's motto is " Release the Old, Proclaim the New and Possess the Future"

I hope I look sexier without shell.