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I have MOVED!!

2007-12-06T16:15:00.000+08:00

Please change my address.

I have moved to www.boonyew.com/writethetalk

I've decided to bunk in on someone else's domain..to save $$ you know.

My Pet Cricket

2007-09-10T22:43:00.000+08:00

My husband has a pet cricket in his boot. It's very happy when the car is in motion. It'll go 'crick, crick, crick'....so cute. That annoys my husband though. He doesn't like unnecessary sounds when he's driving. Apart from the purr of the engine, the music from the player and the voice of his wife (I hope), other sounds annoys him.

Too bad the cricket has a thick skin. It just couldn't be bothered. That's why I try not to mentioned it often when it starts to crick crick.

Sleep

2007-07-13T00:41:00.001+08:00

Slapende hamster, sleeping hamster
Originally uploaded by patries71

All it does is sleep and sleep and sleep

and sleep

Did I mentioned that it always sleep?

I guess it can't be help, sleep takes up 1/3 of our lives. Yet I wonder, is it so dull that sleep is a better, much nicer option?

When it comes to paint

2007-06-27T11:54:00.000+08:00

Listen up, here's something I learn from painting one wall + having a professional take a look at my work

#1
Nylon brush is not as good as the brush with "hair". Don't remember the exact terms. And don't buy those cheap brushes. The "hair" comes out and messes up your paint work. You have to peel it off the wall. Yucks.

#2
Use a more expensive roller. I went to buy the cheapest I could find. Heck, the most expensive was about RM30-RM50! I got mine for RM4.50 from Ace Hardware. Then when I did the second coat, I found that there were bubbles when I rolled it. When I asked a guy at the hardware shop why, he immediately said I bought cheap roller. Now I'm using a RM12.50 one. He said that's good enough.

#3
Don't use satin glo or whatever glo on walls that are not perfectly finished! It doesn't hide defects very well, hence you'll end up painting more coats. The normal kind would suffice.

#4
When you paint a dark colour on a light wall, you'll need more than 2 coats!!

#5
Don't paint a section with brush and another section with rollers. You can see the difference is texture. Best to use mini rollers for the edges. I didn't know they sell mini rollers until I went to ACE Hardware.

#6
Don't let your rollers or paint brush dry before washing! It makes cleaning up so much harder. Leave it in water if you want to use it hours later. But don't leave it too long, it may rust! At least, mine did when I left it soaking for days. There was a time also when I forgot to wash my roller before leaving for a few hours.. the paint hardened and stuck to the rollers 'fur'. So hard to wash off. I was told that it can be done with a lot of scrubbing!

#7
Use the wider brown or glossy brown tape to tape the edges. I thought I would help save some tape by using half the width but turns out that the tape was thinner than the roller, hence some paint got on to the wall.

#8
Hire a professional if you don't want the hassle.

=)

I'm so tired!

2007-06-19T01:12:00.000+08:00

The 6 step ladder that I have is not high enough! I have to stand precariously on the 5th step praying that I won't lose my balance to paint the edge of the wall!

I'm thinking that being shorter than average is defective genes especially when it comes to painting walls and ceilings and reaching the top of shelves and cupboards.

And the worse thing is that my paint is uneven. It looks uneven. I suppose I can pass it off for artistic value. According to http://www.naturalhandyman.com/qa/qapainttechnique.html, it's because my roller is too dry and I'm stretching my paint. I wonder if getting a better quality roller would help. I know a better quality brush would help. Mine has its hair falling as I paint.

My living area looks smaller now, thanks to patches of dark red on 1 wall. Sigh. I really hope that another coat will make it look more even. I ran out of paint, so I'll probably be doing it this Thursday.

I hope my husband appreciates me painting, either that or get me a higher ladder. I so want to buy one but I think I would have problems transporting it back in the Kelisa that I drive.

Rain on the 4th Floor

2007-06-14T17:08:00.000+08:00

I've never find thunderstorms scary until I started living on the 4th floor. Facing a park and a lake doesn't help.

You can see the tree tops swaying harshly and the violent ripples across the lake.
You can see the flashes of light through the windows and sliding door.
( having no curtains allow you to see all these clearer)
The thunder sounds just right next to you.
What's scary is the lightning flashes. It's makes you wonder if it's going to strike you.
And the howl of the wind through the window gaps.

*shudders*

Right now the howl is getting louder, the flashes of light more rampant and the spatter of rain on the windows are increasing..

Sipadan Mabul Kapalai

2007-06-08T00:06:00.000+08:00

Yeah, I went there for scuba diving.
It was great fun.
I got brown.
There were lots of turtles.
Huge
1 bigger than me
Though it looked dead
They look arrogant.
Yup. Black eyes, slanty lids
Like "who the heck are you?" attitude
Saw really cools things
Octopus
Cuttle fish ( big wan)
Tiny pygmy seahorse (technically saw it but really, it's too tiny to see it's features"
Schooling barracuda
Schooling Jacks
Heck, I saw nearly everything in "Finding Nemo" except for
Jellyfish
Hammerhead shark
The fish with a dangling bulb
and a few others
Oh, no pelican too. Was that a pelican in Finding Nemo??
Ooooo and I saw pipefish and mandarin fish.
What's that?
I've never seen them before.
Food was good as well.
Stayed in an oil rig
This isn't a poem

Where's the road ahead?

2007-06-07T23:30:00.000+08:00

Oh, guess what? I made the decision to resign and I resigned. Now I'm back to square 1. It's deja vu. When will I ever get out of this "I don't know what I want as a career"?

It all started on the first day of my Form 4 year. Life before was mapped out for me. You turn 4, you go to kindergarten. You turn 7, you go to primary school. Try get all As for UPSR, then you move on to secondary school.

On a hindsight, I suppose not knowing which secondary school to go to was a sign of the "dunno" brewing ahead. When you are in Form 1, it's do your best for PMR until Form 3.

Then I hit a T-junction. Left - Right. Arts - Science. Qualifying for both doesn't help (of course!) That's when the "which one will you do better in?" came to place. So I picked Arts since my Maths sucks. I'm not sure if it was a good decision 'cos when I went to pre-u, I had problems understanding Add. Maths and it pulled my grades down.

Oh, then the next wall I ran into was which degree and university to go to. Actually, I had problems deciding on pre-u as well. I made the decision by - "I want to live away from home" and went to a college in Penang- stayed in a hostel, made great friends, had lots of fun and came back to KL to do my degree.

Well, I didn't put in much effort in deciding my degree though. In the end, my mum made the decision for me which I strongly objected because I didn't know what I wanted and I didn't bother to find out what I want.

Ok..I can see how this comes back to haunt me. I should have put in the effort to find out what I want

Oooo talk about experience making you wiser.

Which leads to my next dilemma-looking for a job.

Anyway, to cut a long story short, I didn't quite enjoy my 1st job and my 2nd job and my 3rd job. In the first place, I didn't know what kind of job I would really like to have. Yes, I also didn't put in much effort to find out what I wanted and what kind of job I wanted.

Now, why aren't I contend being a clockwatcher who goes to work in the morning, looks at the clock, breaks for lunch, looks at the clock, go home, do whatever I want and goes back to work again? Who cares about not enjoying your work as long as you are paid on time?

Hmmm...I think I have some serious brain issues.

The morale of the story is - it's important to know what kind of career you want to have before you start work. In my opinion, this will help narrow down your job choices and when you're not happy with your work, you can move on and up the corporate ladder faster.

The conclusion of the matter is - I'll make more effort this time to find out what kind of career I want. I got a handful of ideas. Maybe I should write a book about this "internal career search" and put it under "self help" section.

The irony of it all is - we tell our children to study hard, to study smart so that they'll have a bright future. But what's the point of it all if you don't know what you want to do in life? What kind of future will you have if you don't know where you want to go?It's better to help them realize what kind of career they want to have and then ask them to study hard and smart towards the right goal! Eh, and it shouldn't be the parent's goal. That's cheating. Think about those who don't have children to "remove" the regrets they have in life.

Oh shucks, where do you think I can get the compass that Jack Sparrow owns?

Now, Discover Your Strengths

2007-04-15T08:40:00.000+08:00

From before, I've always been searching, have always asked, What am I good at? What are my strengths? All I could see was what I cannot do and what I was weak in.

Then I was recommended to read this book by Marcus Buckingham & Donald O. Clifton called "Now, Discover Your Strengths". The entire book stresses on the importance of focusing on your strengths and only to improve your weakness so that it doesn't suppress your strengths. It highlights that society looks at your weaknesses and management tend to send you to improve your weaknesses and rarely to improve your strengths. In school, they make you study on your weak subjects, rarely helps you build on your good subjects. When we see grades, we see the Bs, Cs and Ds and hardly bother about the As. It brings examples of people like Tiger Woods and Warren Buffet who succeeded because they used their strengths in what they do.

It's interesting.
I took the test.
I didn't quite like the strengths that I have.
Sad rite?

My top 5 are
1. Deliberate - careful, vigilant, private. I see risks in life and address them accordingly.
I hate to admit it, but that describes me perfectly. I think I should be in the security line. I know that if I were to commit murder, I would commit the perfect murder because I would look into all aspects on how I can cover my tracks and not be caught before I commit murder. Erm, no my house is not a fortress although I can tell you where security needs to be tighten.

2. Responsibility - It means I'm utterly dependable. If I say I'll do it, I'll do it. If I don't want to do it, I won't commit to it. Hmm..

3. Futuristic - "loves to peer over the horizon". I never thought myself as one who thinks about the future..or it being a strength. Doesn't everyone think about tomorrow? I didn't realize this until I changed jobs that the reason why I changed was because I was thinking about tomorrow. Now, I do find myself thinking about the future, for myself and for others.

4. Harmony - Oooo.. this is the reason why I'm not nasty and keep myself in check and try to agree with people and when I disagree, I keep silent and acknowledge that everyone has their own opinions and I hate "scenes".

5. Consistency - Treat everyone the same, or realize that everyone should be treated fairly. I guess that means I'm not a 2 faced slimeball that is super nice to one and super bitchy to another??

What I don't like about my strengths is that they sound so boring. Sigh. I want a bit more excitement in my life. That's why I like roller coasters (calculated risks) and not rock climbing. I think that's why I married my husband. He's definitely not deliberate. We nearly missed the last train back to Purley Oaks.

I guess my strengths all kind of complement each other. Anyway, I decided to be a financial planner 'cos my husband said I'm kind of good in planning. ( You can guess why he said that). I do think my strengths matched the job..except for the networking part - which I'm trying hard to improve. Hence this blog.

I've decided to blog more about my thoughts as a way to overcome this perceived 'risk' of baring my thoughts to people. As I type, I have in mind that people would read and I tell myself that what they think is none of my business and shouldn't bother me. Everyone is entitled to their own opinions rite?

However, if you want to find your strengths so that you can blog about it, go check out the latest version "Strengths Finder 2.0" by Tom Rath.

I think I'll check out some personality tests now.

Uh Oh Overloaded!

2007-04-08T20:17:00.000+08:00

Er.. I think I overloaded my washing machine. It's 10kg. I put in a queen size quilt cover and a pillow and put the setting for 'duvet'.

Everything was fine until it reached the spin/rinse cycle. Then it began to vibrate a LOT to the extend that the washing machine moved! There was this heavy thumping sound!

Lesson of the day : Don't overload the machine.

Sigh. Right now I'm washing the bed sheet and 2 pillow cases (lots of empty space in the machine, so tempted to throw in a few more stuff)

Next goal: Wash the quilt! Oh, after I dried the bed sheet.

Miss Manners

2007-04-04T23:49:00.000+08:00

I came across this column in www.msn.com by Miss Manners. It was a really interesting read. Some of her suggestions can be quite subtilely sarcastic and other times strikes a point. It made me think about "etiquette" a little bit differently.

Coming from an Asian background where "face" is important and you don't want to "offend" everyone, I sometimes equate manners with agreeing all the time and letting the other person have his way, even when in my heart I want to say no really badly.

I like the way she suggested how a parent who wanted to invite only 3/4 of the class for her son's birthday party due to the party budget and Miss Manners said that " Do you think that Owen really needs five to eight enemies whom he has pointedly excluded from his party?" And goes on to inform that "if you discriminate, you must do so in ways that at least appear to be impersonal" And suggests a few ways on how to discriminate impersonally like inviting only the boys..

Another situation that I like how she responded is this article on a foraging co-worker. If it was me, I would have suggested ways on how to tell him off but inviting him to be part of the "team" is quite cool. Now he is forced to participate, since it's difficult to stop him from eating without creating an "enemy".

21 Days of Fasting and Praying

2007-03-18T23:20:00.000+08:00

For the past few years, my attempts to fast & pray during these period that leads up to Resurrection Sunday has been in vain. I was either too greedy to fast or too lazy to seriously spend time in prayer.

However, this year, I really want to see certain areas in my life changed. I feel that this year, I really need to fast & pray to see these changes. It's not that God needs to be bribe by prayer & fasting. I'm beginning to see that this world is govern by principles and laws. And prayer & fasting is one of those principles.

To me, fasting & praying is a way of telling God and myself that I'm really serious about wanting to change and I'm committed to it. Anyway, I decided to start by going on a mixture of vegetables, fruits & liquid fast, no meat, for the whole day if I can or just during the night (unless got family dinner).

I was just wondering, apart from Christianity, is there any other religion that talks about a God who ask you to call Him Father? That tells you of a God who loves the world so much that He takes it upon Himself to get rid of their sin so that they can come back to Him? Is there any other God besides the one I know who tells you that you can come to Him anytime, anywhere with any problem and He understands and He can do something about it?

Someone may think, oh, she's so religious, fasting & praying. I don't see it that way because I see religiousness as doing something right without a relationship. There's a difference between helping your mum to wash up because you were told to do so and you don't want to be scolded AND helping your mum to wash up because you love her and you want to help her.

The essence of Christianity is a love relationship with God who made us for relationship. And it's true because for all of us, relationships are the most important. They shape who we are, especially our relationship with our family.

So yeah...I just feel that for the past few years, God has slowly been leading me to a point where I look back and realize that things have happened in my life that made me who I am now and that if I continue being so, I'll never get to where I should be I need to let Him change these things so that I can get there.

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2007-03-17T00:24:00.000+08:00

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It's a bumpy ride home

2007-03-14T23:36:00.000+08:00

There are 13-14 bumps on the road that leads to the condo where I live. Sure is bumpy, especially when I'm in a hurry. I don't know what these neighbourhood people were thinking..13?? don't you think it's a bit too many?

I believe they could just do with erm.. 2?

Uh ok, I admit, if there isn't bumps, I would be speeding (heck, I'm always rushing to somewhere 'cos I don't want to be late neither do I want to be early). I just hope the absorbers won't be affected. *cross fingers*

I cooked dinner today. =). Black pepper chicken (thanks to Lee Kum Kee black pepper sauce) and old long beans with oyster sauce and garlic. Not too bad I must say.

"I thought you don't cook?"

I was hungry and my husband was coming back late. *shrug*

home cook food

2007-03-07T21:54:00.000+08:00

I think I'm beginning to get the hang of eating "my own" home cooked food. My own in inverted commas because 99% of the cooking is done by my husband! =)

Well, I think it's a great blessing to have a husband who enjoys cooking. I just don't like the hassle of cutting up raw chicken/pork/beef (eewww..) and mixing ingredients etc etc. I like baking & simple fuss free food.

When I was in college in Penang, I was asked (more than once!) by friends whether I cook and when I say no, I get the common comments of how wives must cook for husbands blah blah blah. So I thought, why not look for someone who rather be the one cooking for me?

But I didn't choose my husband 'cos he wants to cook. I discovered that after going out with him for awhile. When we married, he mentioned that he enjoys cooking and when we moved into our new place, he cooks, i clean.

Wonderful huh? How things fall in place? =)

2006 The Year that was

2007-01-01T12:31:00.000+08:00

Let's see.. what are the more prominent experiences that happened in 2006..

I went to Bangkok for holiday in January, thanks to Air Asia free flights promotion. It was a 100% shopping + catch up with friends trip. Walk till you drop..Shop till you burn a hole in your pocket! Hahaha..but it's Bangkok, the hole was quite minimal.
I spent my first Chinese New Year as a married couple in PJ. Last year I went down to Penang. It was a really quite New Year. We slept through the entire 2nd day of New Year. Then again, my husband was sick on that day.
Finally, at the very last moment, just before the year comes to an end, Ferns released their long awaited album
After months of agony and wait, my husband bought his 'bella' at a very good price. He's absolutely delighted with it.
I own a pair of boots. Awww..I wore it out only once though.
My first trip to London in November. It's really lovely. hehe. They like to use the word "lovely". I didn't expect to like London as much as I did when I was there. I want to see the rest of England now.. and Europe!
Wheee..My brother made me Tiramisu..after I asked him XX number of times.
Oh, I finally saw a Mola Mola! Unfortunately, it was quite a distance away. Sigh. That's my fault for not swimming faster. But the water was freezing cold! I saw 4 dolphins too..at a distance. They look surreal.
My company's trip was to Phuket. It was great fun. After that, my colleagues have banned me from drinking.
My husband surprised me the day before my birthday. He was out at KLCC for dinner with his colleague. Then later at night, I got a call from him, asking me if I want to go for a drive. He sounded so happy that I thought he may have been drinking. I was wondering why he sounded so cheerful. He usually sounds erm..melancholy? When I got to the car, there was a bouquet of flowers waiting for me. And a gift. So sweet. hehe. Then we went to Alexis for cake and coffee. My birthday dinner was at Dorae Garden, Korean BBQ at Sri Hartamas. We really like the place.
End year disaster - My Mandarin teacher got into an accident. Her condition is now stable. It's really unfortunate for her.... I hope things turn around for the better. We have a hiatus now from Mandarin lessons. Good thing my uncle in London passed me his 'Learn Mandarin' cd and book. I can now continue with my lessons. ( It was an embarrassment when I visited my teacher and I couldn't speak Mandarin to her relatives)
It has been decided. We're moving out to a place of our "own". That's something to look forward to in 2007.

PC Dear.. Life isn't the same without you

2006-10-02T23:56:00.000+08:00

The pc at home is down. I'm using my husband's laptop now. It's sad. With the PC non functioning, there goes my husband too 'cos he's in front of it trying to fix the PC.

If I had more money, I would get myself the Sony Vaio - the super small one, except that I don't have the cash to spare at the moment.

Am I displaced without a PC? More like being hindered from doing the things I want to. I realized that connectivity is becoming more important in my life. It sucks even more when the office PC is super slow like snail.

Reminiscence

2006-09-02T23:12:00.000+08:00

In the past few weeks, I've been thrown back in time. Recalling my past with a tinge of regret(?) or yearning for those good ol days mingled with a lot of memory lapses.

I haven't been good at keeping in touch, I just move on and realize that I left a lot of friendships behind. But then again, I don't really have many close friends. I'm kind of quiet and used to find it hard to make friends.

What I noticed over these past weeks is that when you meet a friend from long ago, she/he becomes a new friend again. People changed over the years and with a gap in between, the friendship isn't as it used to be. I just wonder - would the friendship chemistry still be there?

My journey down memory lane began with my secondary school alumni gathering. Ok, that wasn't so great 'cos it was just me and 3 other schoolfriends. We kind of er..didn't know the rest and the others who were in the same year as we were ..well, they were sitting at another table.

Then I received an invitation for ex-college meeting. There was about 8 of us. Apparently, the previous meeting had more people. We're now planning for a semi grand reunion during chinese new year next year. it would be 10 years since we left college. GOSH! That makes you feel so old, doesn't it? Yet in a strange way, I never felt a day older since i stepped out of college.

Kind of weird how when something starts, it doesn't stop after 1 round?? The next trip down memory lane happened today, at an ex-neighbour's son wedding. When I was young, I used to go across the street and play with the youngest daughter. They used to give me a ride to and fro from primary school. We really had good fun together.. until I went to secondary school.. Then later they moved house and we lost contact. The "funny" thing is that when I looked her up in frienster today, she had quite a number of 3rd degree connections with me.

Then this evening, I found out that my husband's parents' friends' daughters used to go to the same primary school as me and one of them is my age. Hmm.. small world huh?

It's good to get reacquainted again.

Secondary School Alumni Hi-Tea

2006-08-20T23:40:00.000+08:00

Beginning of last year, I came to realize that I must learn to be more sociable. I'm not a very sociable person. I'm selective in whom I consider as a friend, even more a close friend. I keep things mainly to myself ( and now, share it with my husband) but my best friend in this world is Jesus (sounds religious, but honestly it's not, seeing that I'm an introvert and Jesus is one person I can trust to keep secrets). I have a small circle of friends. I don't enjoy talking on the phone. I can be too lazy to go out and yum char or lepak with friends.

Last year, as I looked ahead into my future and what paths should I take, I concluded that I need to be more sociable and learn to interact with people, particularly people that I don't quite know or don't know at all. I have this aversion of making new friends. It's a bit difficult to cross the hurdle and get into the process of discovering someone new. This decision to be more sociable is one of the few main reasons why I made a career switch.

So when I received this email informing that my secondary school alumni is having a hi-tea just to meet up and get to know one another, I sent it out to my schoolmates and made the decision to go. My immediate tendancy would be to ignore, delete and don't go. But i decided to.. I thought - hey, I really do need to learn to meet more people. Since 3 of my schoolmates decided to go, so yeah. I went.

As they say, 'it's hard for a leapord to change its' spots'. What it turned out was a reunion between the 4 of us as we haven't seen each other for a while. It was weird meeting strangers who have only 1 thing in common with you. It's awkward seeing a few of the teachers. I didn't know whether to say hi or not 'cos I really really believe they don't remember who I am. After all, it has been 10 years since I was in form 5. The teachers would have come across 10 x 42 students x 5 classes = 2100 students. (I wasn't an outstanding student in my year).

The best part was meeting with my schoolmates in my year whom I didn't keep in touch with since I left school. I forgot most of their names, barely recognize some. Most awkward.

Sigh. I think the metamorphosis to be a social butterfly is going to be a really slow process - that's ok I guess - as long as it's before I'm 80. Erm-I think I should give myself a closer deadline.

Alrite, I think I'll just start with keeping in touch with old friends first. Yes, in my introvert stage, keeping in touch with friends is a chore as well. I would get too lazy to call or email or sms or even message. Of course, over time, I realize that friendship is of great value and efforts are required to keep valuable things.

Oops, I'd better go drop an email to my cousin in Sydney. Suppose to email her but..

Old part of KL

2006-07-22T21:02:00.000+08:00

The area where I work is a strange place when you look up down and around instead of straight ahead.

In the skyline is KLCC, the epitome of Malaysia's development. Look down and you'll see the rubbish filled teh tarik coloured river - the proof of Malaysia's development & lack of civic maturity.

Beside the river are shophouses of colonial architecture where some are more than 50 years old. There's one row of shoplots that has been deserted except for one lot that is used as paper/cardboard storage by a nearby photostating shop. The other shoplots are half abandoned. In between dismal looking vacant lots are thriving mamak shops and small grocery shops. The source of their derelict state apparently is the river which overflows once too often - so said my friend.

What is strange is that situated among these dismal looking colonial shoplots are tall not so sad looking office buildings. My workplace is one of them. Sometimes I wonder why did they choose to build it there? I suppose it's because it's first building was there. Why move so far?

It's a very mix crowd of people on that stretch of road which I walk from my workplace to the LRT station. There are the employees - in their nicely ironed office attires. Then there are the general workers, scruffily dressed in their pants and shirts.Nowadays you see more foreign workers around from Bangladesh or India. Then there are the beggars on the pathways, some sleeping in front of the abandoned shop lots. Occassionally, you'll meet tourists..walking from Renaissance or Sheraton..or somewhere, because on the other side is Jln Sultan Ismail - The NICE area. Students and people in transit make up the remainding of the crowd.

I just find the whole place strange because I expect a commercial centre to be well..like KLCC area or Jalan Ampang or Jalan Sultan Ismail. Not like..rojak. Not with abandanded shop lots that has cobwebs and dirt all over. Not with shoplots of colonial architecture with peeling paints.

Nevertheless, it's quite humbling to walk down that area and see for yourself that fame, money and dazzle don't last or at least - change happens. I believe those abandoned shoplots were once thriving with business and customers. I suppose most of these business have relocated to a less flood prone area.

Maybe someone would decide to give the whole place a facelift. I like what Singapore does to their old buildings - touched ups and fresh coats of PLEASANT coloured paint. Old buildings that are well maintained do give depth to a place. As far as I know, most Western nations take pride in their old buildings, allowing them a place in the midst of modern development.

Stuffed Crab - A show of love

2006-07-10T22:26:00.000+08:00

How do you know you're loved?
When do you feel loved?

When I was young, before entering primary school, I spend my weekends at my mum's mum place. My poh poh was the one who looked after me when I was young. In a way, she has a special place in my heart.. although.. I must admit I don't do much to show it. I rarely call and take her out for lunch or dinner.

Ok.. I feel bad now.. and I've decided I should take the initiative. I'm not a very 'relational' person but people have to change.

One of my favourite dish that my poh poh cooks is stuffed crab. The crabs (a lot of crabs are needed for this) are boiled and de-shelled. Then its mixed with pork meat & chopped water chestnut and stuffed into the crab "head" and then its fried.

And my poh poh made them for me last weekend!!

Ok.. so you wonder what's so special about it that made me feel so touched?

Firstly, it's a lot a lot of work to deshell so many crabs..

Secondly, my poh poh isn't it the tip top of health. She suffered from a mild stroke before and one of her hands don't have the strength it used to have. It took her 2 days to get it done.

So nice hor? It was a rare treat.

New Year just lurking round the corner

2006-01-28T20:44:00.000+08:00

It's that time of year again.
Little children (& singles) look forward to.
But once you're married, the joy gets cut down to half.

Aww syucks.
Giving ang pows isn't as fun as getting - especially when you've a tight budget.
It's kind of embarrasing give small amounts of $$ in that nice red shiny packet to eager looking eyes.

Well, we got to start somewhere and I belive in low expectations. It's lovelier to get more than expected the following year.

What I really like most about Chinese New Year is the quietness of it all. I enjoy knowing the fact that I'm a minority left behind in the city with tons of people crawling out back to their home towns. It's great to know that the roads will have less cars. I enjoy the holiday and people getting together and smiling..

This year is a new kind of new year. I'm not living in my home..but in my husband's home. And he's never been in town before during the new year. It means that I have the choice to just stay @ home and not having to meet familiar strangers at all.. such temptation! Alas, my task this year is to meet familiar strangers and make more acquaintances..oh well.

Gong Xi Fa Cai

Lost Friends

2006-01-21T17:54:00.000+08:00

Have you ever had that feeling that you're losing friends?

I do.

My friends don't seem to want to keep in touch with me.

Erm..so am I paranoid?

I don't get yum char calls. If ever I do, it's me calling.
I don't get 'let's meet up' calls.
Shall we go shopping?

But then again, I'm not such a social chic.

So why this impression?

Because I see that my husband's friends keep in touch. They call each other to go out for drinks and food. Occassionally they try to get everyone to meet up.

And I see that lacking in my life.

Am I such a terrible friend to have?

Or did I choose friends that are like me? Complacent..I'm not bothered to call if no one calls..

Or have we drifted apart? Found new friends, enjoying the company of our boyfriends more?

Another weekend

2006-01-20T18:32:00.000+08:00

I really don't like studying for exams anymore.
They give you the most boring materials.

Why can't they give you more intersting stuff to read for exams?
I had so much problems paying attention to the book.

And my exam is less than 24 hours away. Sigh.
I hope I pass. I don't want a resit.
I still can't bring myself to study

Too many distractions.

Lost

2005-12-26T17:06:00.000+08:00

The past few days I've been lost.

I don't know what to do and I can't seem to get a grip of anything.

It's a weird feeling.

I feel as though I've lost control.. of everything.

Random Equations

2005-12-16T19:41:00.000+08:00

I've decided to blog about stuff rather than work for a change. I've noticed that I've been blogging a lot about work lately..At this point in time, it's the thing that affects me the most.

Anyway, latest hot topic in the news is about the video of the naked women doing squats in prison. Personally, I suspect that Malaysians are more interested to know the identity of the lady and the scandal that surrounds it rather than the rights of detainees and the integrity of the police force.

Next year, I'll be going to Bangkok for holiday..AGAIN. This time it's a romantic getaway. Unlike the last time where I was visiting my then fiance when he was posted there on a project for close to a month. I had to shop alone..but it was great 'cos I got my evening gown for my wedding dinner for RM200. That's a real bargain. The main reason why I dislike shopping alone is because I have a hard time making decisions alone when it comes to whether I should buy or not to buy. Even in purchasing my evening gown, I had problems deciding between a sweet pink or a gold yellow. Finally, for whatever reasons, I decided on gold yellow..which was a good decision as my fiance said he wouldn't have like the pink. *whew*

Anyway, I plan to look for nice cheap suits and erm.. I think I'd better list down a few items that I want to purchase ..oh and skirts and cute little blouses. I want to eat Thai desserts and Dairy Queen ( much cheaper in Bangkok than in M'sia)..and maybe drop by China Town as I've not been there before.

Whee..and I may be going on a company trip to Phuket. Although I'm not really looking forward to that. What is there to do in Phuket besides the beach?

Oh..and if you ever open a business or set up a company, hire the right people with the right attitude. I had breakfast in Jelutong today and the service sucks..The service of 1 person sucked. He brought the wrong order and asked the customer to accept it. When we complained that a fly was cooked along with the maggi mee soup, he said that the fly probably flew in and did not take the initiative to do anything. It's not suprising that we've made the decision to not go back there again. However, the cashier had a bit of initiative to refund $$ for the maggi mee soup when we complained about the fly. *shake head*

There's one thing that people don't teach in school is that PEOPLE are the ones that make the difference. In economy, they talk about theories and principles but they leave out PEOPLE & POLITICS. It's the people & politics that determines whether the country is going to grow economically or remain forever poor. When you study business , they teach about finances and sales and management, but they leave out ATTITUDES, that make or break you.

Aik..I want to end this blog now and focus on.. RESEARCHING Bangkok shopping spots..

December

2005-12-13T13:47:00.000+08:00

December 2002 - My first Christmas in a few years spent without my boyfriend. He was going to come back the following year. Sigh. I don't recall much of it

December 2003 - I got engaged! We were in Singapore in December and my fiance bought me a ring (tat I chose). It's a flower shaped ring. I really like it 'cos it's unique and cute and affordable. We made a decision to marry without having a lot of funds. A bit silly rite?

December 2004 - One more month to my wedding. And we still don't have readily available funds. December was a hectic month with choir practice and wedding preparations and long working hours. It wasn't pleasant going through December. God is very gracious because when my wedding come, we weren't in debt but we had $$ leftover for our apartment. Talk about divine providence.

December 2005 - One more month to my 1st wedding anniversary. You know what? I still don't have funds. Late this year, I made a career switch that cost me a stable income and a familiar working environment. As of now, I'm struggling with a profound fear of asking and approaching strangers & acquiantances, especially face to face. It's an irrational fear that was in built in me since young and is a barrier to this new career that I chose. I chose a career that requires me to ask and I've learnt over the past few months that I'll never know unless I ask.

In 2004, as I look towards the new year, my thoughts was filled with my wedding preparations. What has been done and what has to be done. How would it go? Will there be sufficient $$ to pay for the expenses? All my hope was in God for I know that only He has total control.

In 2005, as I look towards the new year, my thoughts are filled with my new career and my new home. Will I be able to make enought $$? How to pay for the ang pows? When will the house be ready? Where should be stay? All my hope is in God for I know no other who can help me.

I understand the truth of it ' though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil for you are with me, your rod and staff, they comfort me'

I felt that after so many years from being a teenager to college to university to my 1st day at work and there after, I've not entered into a valley. I've not encountered a situation that challenges me so emotionally and mentally and leave me so helpless as I am now - when I know that I have no one to depend on but God.

1 Week of Holiday and all did was Holiday

2005-11-08T19:33:00.000+08:00

Day 1 (Monday)

Dreary day to go to work. Rained started very early in the morning..=(. I had an appointment during lunch time. Knowing that my hubby had to go Low Yat, I decided to ask him for a lift to my place of appointment. Unfortunately, jalan TAR & Tun razak was so jam that it took him awhile to get to my office. By then, it was too late.. and I had to postpone my appointment. =(

Oh well, since my hubby had come, I followed him to Low Yat and we managed to get the Initial D dvd. Woo hoo! Spent the whole night watching Stage 2.. there goes Day 1

Day 2 (tuesday)

Happy Deepavali!
I woke up just in time to go to my fren's house for Deepavali lunch. Boy was the crab delicious. His sister is a fabulous cook. Yum Yum.

After lepaking... you know, I can't remember what I did. I probably slept in the afternoon and watched more Initial D.. perhaps.

I do believe that I went out for dinner with my mum and younger bro at Italiani's.. the food there isn't as great as I first tasted it. The bread is still as delicious though.

Then it's Initial D marathon again...

Day 3 (Wednesday)

Oh..so what did I do that day? Oh yeah, Woke up just in time for dim sum with a friend. Sigh. Looks as though i've been waking up for food. After that, had a joy ride to TPM and later to Ikano to get a gift for house warming party.

The houses in the new area of BKt Jelutong is pretty cool. My friend has a really nice house with fishes in the centre. fun. we stayed up till 3am.. hubby was playing xbox and then a card game. i was engrossed in the chronicles of narnia

Day 4 (thursday)

Time flies when you're on holiday. What happened on thursday? I can't remember. Probably woke up about noon and erm.. had lunch? I believed I read chronicles of narnia most of the day. Then there was dinner at night. I had snow crab. it's really tasty and my favourite lai liu har.

Gosh.. the holiday seemed pretty long when I reflect on how I spent it, but when I was there, it went by really quickly.

We spent the whole night/day watching initial D..again. Slept at 6am

Day 5 (friday)

I don't recall doing anything specific. Went out with tea with a friend. Then what? i watched the OVA of Oh my goddess. nice..except for the Disc 5..it was erm..kind of spoilt. oh well

Day 6 (Saturday)

I caught my hubby's flu bug. Bad sore throat..feverish. Great..what did I do on saturday? i slept most of my afternoon away...woke up in time to go dinner with my family. Went to PD to try out the seafood. On the way to PD, was caught in a terrible jam..sucks..After PD, we went to Sri Kembangan where more food awaits.. By then, i wasn't feeling so great hence the lack of appetite.

Day 7 (Sunday)

In the middle of the night, my body ached really bad and I had difficulty sleeping. However, after waking up and taking panadol, I felt much better in the morning. Which was a good thing. I had half of my mind to not go church but felt that I need to go. And it was the right decision. This pastor spoke of the presence of God and how important it is to always remain in His presence.

After church..it was sleeping time, not before having brunch at this bak kut teh shop.

oh dear, how did I spend my sunday night apart from dinner? I really don't recall. Probably preparing for Monday.. I remember dreading Monday.. sigh.. the end of my wonderful holiday. I don't mind a repeat. =)

I'd probably get 1 in late January - chinese new year!

Reading

2005-10-30T17:55:00.000+08:00

www.gutenberg.org

A blessing?

Indeed but not for the unrestraint.

Ever since I discovered this site, I've been hunting for good free ebooks to read.

It's bad.

Because I have things to do, yet I just can't help browsing and downloading the books and reading them as fast as I possibly can, then feel guilty about not doing what I'm suppose to do and giving myself excuses to procrastinate doing the things that I should get done with.

What i don't like about gutenberg is there is no brief description of what the book is about. I think being a high 'C' in character causes me to want to know what is the book is about and how the ending is before I begin reading. I dislike stories that end abruptly or have a sad ending.

Okay... I admit. I like light reading and I like happy endings.

Taking Back for Granted

2005-10-15T11:37:00.000+08:00

ouch

I somehow sprained my upper back - from the neck to the shoulder blades. It aches - even when I'm not moving.

A simple task of turning my head to look left brings pain. Inserting the thumbdrive into the CPU becomes a chore.

It started me thinking that I've been taking things for granted. Honestly, I don't feel grateful when I could bang my head pain free or get up from bed with ease.

Up till now.

This past week, I've been feeling a bit down. It's LSED. Low Self Esteem disease. It's caused by LSEV (Low self esteem virus). Once you contracted it, there's no cure. Under the right conditions, it springs up, latches on to your self esteem and brings it way down.

Could gratefulness be the cure?

My theory is that LSEV is a virus that craves for your attention. The more attention it gets, the fatter it becomes, hence heavier and drags your self esteem down with it's weight.

Being grateful would divert your attention from the LSEV... theoratically. Being grateful makes you thankful. And you need to thank someone. In my case, it would be God 'cos I believe He is Omnipotent and He's my creator.

Well, let's see if gratefulness is the answer. I have a new week ahead of me to test this theory out.

HAMtaro

2005-09-11T19:34:00.000+08:00

No wonder I like Hamtaro. We have something in common - humour.

My husband's a Prankster. Sigh. Looks like I'm the more lightheaded one. =þ

the Ham

(19% dark, 53% spontaneous, 26% vulgar)

your humor style:
CLEAN | SPONTANEOUS | LIGHT

Your style's goofy, innocent and feel-good. Perfect for parties and for
the dads who chaperone them. You can actually get away with corny
jokes, and I bet your sense of humor is a guilty pleasure for your
friends. People of your type are often the most approachable and
popular people in their circle. Your simple & silly
good-naturedness is immediately recognizable, and it sets you apart in
this sarcastic world.

PEOPLE LIKE YOU: Will Ferrell - Will Smith

The 3-Variable Funny Test!

- it rules -

If you're interested, try my latest:
The Terrorism Test

My test tracked 3 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:

You scored higher than 1% on darkness
You scored higher than 74% on spontaneity
You scored higher than 21% on vulgarity

Link: The 3 Variable Funny Test written by jason_bateman on Ok Cupid

I want a wabyt!

2005-09-10T18:01:00.000+08:00

I want to get a wabyt! My friend has one. So cute with dropping ears and fuzzy fur.
I'm going to name my rabbit Wabyt.

But have to wait till I have an apartment first. My room is too cluttered. I doubt the rabbit will survive. It may turn into a furball.

Maybe keeping a rabbit would help prepare me to be a parent. Like a trial run before you really am one. Better practice than keeping a fish. That would help as much as having a baby photo in your room which you take down and dust occassionally.

(trying to give myself a good reason to keep a rabbit)

I've always wanted to have a rabbit since I was a kid. My mum never agreed. She's not into pets. She doesn't like cats or dogs. Although we had a few dogs but then, they weren't mine.

The only reason why I'm hesitant of getting a rabbit now is (apart from lack of space) that I'm afraid I may get tired of taking care of it. I suppose I had to start getting use to taking care of something.. (husband don't count, he takes care of himself :þ)

Wabyt!!

I'll just get an online pet while I decide.

City of Refuge

2005-09-06T21:49:00.000+08:00

Last year ended with the Tsunami.
It began with my wedding.

The 3rd Quarter of the year was highlighted with Hurricane Katrina and multiple air plane crashes. We cringe at war and fear nuclear weapons but there is a terror greater than that - natural disasters.

Externally the world is chaotic. Cries of help and pleading for mercies.

I just started my new job. For the month of September, I don't know if I would be earning $$. People talk about not having enough $$. I'm talking about having no $$. Which is worse?

Yet the earth still spins and the sun rises and sets and the moon takes its' place.

Some people ask, how can you still continue with life in the midst of such terrible disasters? But it still rains and the sun still shines. Birds still fly and insects crawl. I think that those who are not in it still need to continue life as it is for them, else the whole world would come to a halt. Then who is going to help us all??

Yeah. Maybe that's the question everyone is asking. Who is going to help us all?

On my 2nd day of work, my 1st day of cold calling, I felt this terrible reluctance to go to work. It's hinged on fear. I had this fear of calling strangers and being turned down, not knowing what's waiting at the other end of the line.

Then i prayed and asked God to take away this fear. I had enough of dreading to go to to work, I really don't want to dread going to work in this new job. After a few calls, God did take away my fear. When I was turned down, it didn't hurt as much although it was a bit dissapointing to get 1 tentative 'yes' after calling the whole entire day.

Well, anyway God is my city of refuge. Externally, the world is chaotic. You never know what is going to happen. Internally, my world is chaotic. I never know what is going to happen. All I know is that God knows what is going to happen and I trust in Him.

2 more days

2005-08-30T10:32:00.000+08:00

I have 2 more days before I start my new job..
It feels like my school holiday is about to end and I have to sit for exams when I return to school.
That dread..

That's the problem when you're a 'C' person [check out the DISC personality profile] and have decided to make a 180 degrees change in career.

But there's more..

I have this list of things that I want to do before I start my new job and 90% of it is still on the list.
That's so sad.

I don't know what happened to my hours.
I know most of it was spent travelling within PJ trying to get my certificates out etc. Another few days was spent in training. 1 or 2 was sort of wasted? Did I? I don't think so.

Oh i dunno..

oh well.. maybe I shouldn't have so many things on my list knowing how I love to procrastinate or knowing how time has its own way of flying off unseen.

2 more days..

It's so great driving a BMW

2005-08-25T22:14:00.000+08:00

NO!

Not when you're less than 5 feet and the BMW is 15 years old?

The problem : I had to put 2 pillows behind my back before I can reach the clutch.

How embarrassing. I pulled the seat up max to the closest I could get to the steering wheel, and I still couldn't reach the clutch.

Thank God I could look out into the windscreen. I dunno if other people could see someone driving that car, but yeah, at least I could see other people driving their cars.

Anyway, it's a relief to get back with the car in 1 piece. Thank God for that. I prayed all through my journey - to prayer meeting. hehe. Maybe it's just God's way of teaching me to have courage and trust in Him - always.

Which leads to 1 conclusion that I have made after 1 day of taking the feeder bus.
If you want to learn what faith is, take the public bus!

Public buses has a prescribed route and a specified time. However, as punctual as Malaysians are, we are usually approximately there, sometimes early, sometimes late and suprisingly on time when you least expect.

Hence the need for faith.

I know that there's a LRT feeder bus that passes my house. How regular, at what time - I do not know.

One day, when I needed to take that bus in the afternoon, I tracked it's movement (I can tell that the LRT feeder bus is passing by the unique sound it makes when it brakes to go over the bump on the road in front of my house).

9.50am
10.36am
11.12am
11.55am
12.35pm
1.17pm

I concluded that the LRT feeder bus passes by approximately every 40 minutes.
Upon calculation, I speculated that it would pass by at 3.15pm.

It could be earlier, It could be late, It could be on time.

So I waited at 3.10pm. The sun was hot.
And I waited.
And then the questions started..
Is it coming?
Must I take a taxi?
Would it be late?
What if the driver decides to take tea?
Maybe I calculated it wrongly?
Lord..please let it come. I don't want to pay RM2.50 for the taxi fare!
And I waited.
3.15pm
It didn't drive by.
And the questions continued..
Will it stop? There's no bus stop here.
What if the driver didn't see me?
what if the driver purposely didn't want to stop?
Is it ever coming?
I'm giving it another 5 minutes, else I'll take the cab.

Talk about test of faith!

At 3.20pm, the familiar sound of the LRT feeder bus was heard, I saw it, flagged and prayed it would stop and it did!

I got on board, paid 50cents, very very thankful that I saved RM2.

The more I think about it, the more I see the resemblance - taking that step of faith, is like waiting for the public bus in M'sia.

Reading don't equate to Living

2005-08-18T17:04:00.000+08:00

Oh, it's just a title. I couldn't decide what to title this blog.

I haven't been blogging for awhile.. I don't think anyone misses though as I don't get much readers simply 'cos I don't publicize it.

It's nearly September..3 more months to December. How quickly time flies..thru tough times and happy times. I remember last year, I was looking forward to my wedding, this year - I don't know what to look forward to.

1 word summarizes this year - CHANGE!!

First it was the marriage
Then it was staying in a home that is not the home you've been living in for the past 25 years
Then it was spiritual - truths about praying, the apostolic & prophetic

but the major one was job switch.

All my life, at the back of my mind, I said I'm not going to sell. Why? Because I don't think I'm good at it. I'm reserve. I'm quiet. I keep to a small circle of friends. I don't enjoy socialising. I feel uncomfortable around strangers.

So why the heck did I decide to switch from administration to sales?

Because I see that it's the way I need to take to meet my future goals and because I realize that I really need to break out of my "predicability & fear of strangers" shell.

And ouch it hurts all the way.

Imagine you're a tortoise happily hiding in your shell and here's this gila person taking a hammer to crack it open.

Hurts like hell.

Oh well. I've decided to take the pain killer and let the shell crack.

The latest change is my mindset on money. Attending this course on Financial Freedom and it's super though provoking - It takes the earth from you and lets you fall right through, relying on God's grace & promises to catch you at the bottom.

I'm not suprised that this year is a year of change for me. It's what you would expect when you attend a church whose year's motto is " Release the Old, Proclaim the New and Possess the Future"

I hope I look sexier without shell.

Upside Down Topsy Turvy

2005-07-04T20:13:00.000+08:00

That's how I felt my life was these past 2 weeks. Out of place - like the little toad. I found it in my chalet one night. It's as cute as a toad can be. I don't think it's a frog rite?

In my older years, I realize what a sucker I am for order. Somehow, routines & orders is a norm for me. Maybe it's because my life has been so predictable. Day in Day out, somehow the 'main' things remain constant.

It's strange how order can revolve around a person. You would think it has to do with occurences & happenings but a human being?

That's exactly what swung my life out of balance. A person.

That lead me to thinking..

Is my life revolving around this person a bit too much?

Most of my friends that I'm close to are either too far away or can't drive

Would a car make me be less of a revolver?

Would it make my life more orderly and less erratic?

Then my life would start to revolve around a car and if the car breaks down, then I'll be off balance again.

If I must have order and stability, then I had better have my life revolve something (one) solid that never changes.

Sunday Cramps

2005-06-26T20:07:00.000+08:00

Dun you just hate it when your whole Sunday afternoon is wasted in pain? Of all things, pain.

I had a really really bad cramp this afternoon and couldn't do anything else than lie on the bed. In agony, drenching my bed with cold sweat and waiting for the whole ordeal to end.

What a way to spend my Sunday.

I'm believing God that this is the last of my cramp. It's time for it to end. After all, God said that by the stripes of Jesus, I'm healed. And so I am.

What I really find a privilege of being a Christian is the possibility. There is no impossibility to the situation because the God I serve is a God of all possibilities 'cos He's the Almighty.

You go home early and then what?

2005-06-23T19:47:00.000+08:00

You sit in front of the computer and start typing and clicking your mouse away..

WAIT A MINUTE!!

Wasn't that what you were doing in your office before you come back home??

Oh yeah.
It was.

Darn.

Why did I bother coming home anyway? Office has nice air-con, great lights....and I score a plus when my boss sees that I'm busying 'working' away after the official go home time.

---------------------------

I don't have an internet access in my workplace.

Even if I do, I'll be a dead duck if I'm caught browsing or blogging.

And it just feels so great to be home, knowing work is done for the day.

Fish Go a Swimming

2005-06-05T12:36:00.000+08:00

Location : Sony shop @ The Curve

In the centre of the shop, where the cameras are displayed, is a square aquarium containing ocean fishes. The aquarium is at the peripheral of a pillar.

When I was there, Sat 4 June 05 @ 930pm, I noticed 1 yellow tang ( think Dory in yellow) and a long-fin bannerfish swimming.

It's really funny because the yellow tang was swimming round and round the aquarium and the long-fin bannerfish was following the yellow tang behind. It was as though the both of them were having a race and the yellow tang was leading. Other times, it seemed as though the yellow tang was trying to loose the long-fin bannerfish who persistently wants to be with the yellow tang.

Who knows what's in their heads. It's just amusing watching them swimming round and round.

=)

I think Sony have that aquarium in there to keep people like me occupied - non digital savvy folks who find fishes more entertaining than the latest gadgets.

A Road Less Travelled

2005-06-04T15:16:00.000+08:00

A Road Less Travelled

By Robert Frost

The Road Not Taken,
Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both,
And be one traveller, long I stood,
And looked down one as far as I could,
To where it bent in the undergrowth,

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear,
Though as for that, the passing there,
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay,
In leaves no step had trodden black,
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh,
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I -
I took the one less travelled by,
And that has made all the difference.

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The poem above described my situation and my decision. 2 days ago I made a choice.

I quit my job.

It's a great job. I have job security. I have a nice physical working environment. I like my colleagues. Only 1 thing did't fit in - the work.

I didn't like the hours I have to put in for the work that I do. I felt the output didn't justify the input. The more I consider my future, the more I see that what I'm doing now is not going to get me where I want to be.

After 1 year of frustration, pondering and praying - I decided to quit my job and take up a job offer I would never ever have considered taking.

I don't know how this journey I've chosen would be. I know it would provide me with the skills that I need. All I have is the assurance that God is my provider and He's with me all the way. I guess that's all I need. What more can I ask for? After all, as Jesus puts it, God feeds the sparrows and clothes the lilies in the field, He sent His son to die for me, how can I not trust Him who loves me so much?

Song of Freedom

2005-05-18T22:25:00.000+08:00

A song of freedom is on my lips
Today, today
I sing about the One I love
Today, today

All I can see is Your mercy
All I can feel is Your grace

Your love is so wonderful
Let all the people sing that
Our God reigns above all

As depressed as I was about work today, as I started to pray, the phrase "your love is so wonderful" keep coming to mind.

I went online to do a search as I don't recall what song it came from, and to my amazement, it came from a song by Hillsong entitled "Song of Freedom".

I'm dying to be free from this situation that I am in. I don't know how I got myself in it.

In the process of frustration, I began to search out who I am, what am I? Where am I heading? What do I want to do?

Now I know what I want in future but I don't know how to get there. Frustration made me see myself able to do more things than before, things that I would hesitate doing then. Now, I would be saying 'yeah, let's try'. Before, I would say 'no'.

I learn to stop worrying. I tend to worry more but each time I catch myself worrying, I remind myself to trust in the Lord who knows all things and is able to do all things.

I see the bad side of me when I'm under pressure, I see the good side of me as well. Out of all this, I hope my character improves.

to Ikea we go

2005-05-15T17:47:00.000+08:00

I walked till I drop.
Spent more than 3 hours walking and had nothing to show for it.
=þ

Welcome to the satisfying world of window shopping!

There's just something about walking down the pathways of Ikea's showroom, looking at designs and having this 'pop' in your head - hey, that's how I want my room to be like or that's a great way to do this, why didn't I ever think of that?

And Ikea serves great coffee too. A pity Ikea changed the texture of its' ice cream. I like the version it served when it was in 1 Utama. It had chocolate flavour then as well.

Open For Viewing

2005-05-12T22:08:00.000+08:00

-Welcome to the world of Blogging-

Thus sayeth my hubby when I announced that my blog is now open for viewing.

;P

I got writer's blog now.